Purpose after all does define us; agent smith, bloody machine(ooookkkaaayyy matrix program(virus?)) did have it right!
The day I lose my sense of humor is probably the day I would start doing right by my life.Right now everything seems funny!
The idea of "Playing to your strengths" seems at times an exacerbated joke and sometimes "shit thats obvious why didn't I see it before" sort of a realization. Being in the former state is a unimaginative euphemism majority of us (......to be abide by the unwritten rules of perfectly unbiased introspection I must add that this is so(OBviously) in my and my opinion only and hence bound to be colored by my inherent predispositions(I don't think so but still) ) choose to live by.
I think all of us reach that particular point sooner or later where we realize that life is not perfect, in fact faaaar from it. But maybe thats just because we were not created perfect. We are processes; born with certain inherent strengths and some acquired weaknesses which we come to accept as inherent, [Not that we don't have weaknesses, the very fact that we have "some" strengths makes us not so so strong in the "other" areas, in which by the way somebody else might be "stronger". Feels like logic chopping? thats just because I am poorly equipped to express in words all that my brain {apparently(to me)}seems to comprehend these days.], seemingly created by a source which will take only a certain amount of trouble to see it(/us?) through, since the intent of creation itself is inextricably connected with the fact that we are equipped with free will. Hence the aforesaid achievement of perfection by the processes(us) is to a large(not that large really if you think about it) extent left to us.(...at this point I am ready to pay someone to edit my blogs...I just read what I wrote and its...well..poorly composed :(.....).
To strive without competing, to give without feeling that sickly, hypocritical feeling often mistaken for generosity, to think without comparing, to accept that it is impossible to be truly unselfish and keeping this in mind to be as gracious as possible stopping only when the drive to see your own survival through bothers you in truth, are very very hard things to accomplish and maintain. It seems preposterously self-righteous to aspire for anything more in these things...at least seems so right now.
to be continued and modified.
