Most of my limitations are self-imposed. I have been dreaming about studying medicine for quite some time.....high scores in high school biology exams helped fuel this "delusion". Now I am in my second year in computer science engineering......and though by all reasonable standards i cannot be tagged one of the "brilliant" students in my class i like it.......I keep thinking i'd have expired had I taken some crap like ece and now i know that I am fortunate to have got cse in such a good instituition......since childhood brainteasers , riddles , puzzles have fascinated and frightened me....this predisposition of mine and my prominient(read monumental) laziness at problem solving often makes me wonder if I am of engineering calibre.......the only thing i like is reading books(fantasy mostly,outgrew thrillers), listening to music and making grand plans to undertake hugely mentally challenging projects.....stints at solving shakuntla devi 's puzzles and playing chess and doin math from famously infamous math refrence books(this one in my school days......now in engineering working for math is a thing of the past.......a friend once told me that some cricket player(kumble i think) raises his bat on scoring 40.....reason? he was an engineering student and WE KNOW how tough the chase for that elusive number gets.)
But there are times when at all the aforementioned things I don't do so bad (at least in my opinion)......these are times when i don't care about the outcome.......I guess the mental barrier I have for them ceases to exist when I cease to care
Why am I talking of these things?
I dunno.
nota bena: The objective of this post is not to advise.
I aint' soul searching or anything........the thought makes me gag.
Disclaimer: Some parts of the post may make some sense.
